January 25

The Good: I was so proud of myself today because I used exercise today to destress instead of food for the first time EVER! Shawn and I have been extremely stressed financially since he has been without a job for almost a year and a half and for the last 4 months has not been on unemployment. We know that we have survived this long but we are at the point that we honestly cannot live off my salary any longer. I literally got to the point that I could not think about bills any longer and I jumped on the treadmill. I was able to do SO much today because I was able to put all of my stress into my workout and afterwards I felt like a different person! I was amazed at how much better I felt afterwards, a MUCH better feeling than binging on any food I see in sight.

The Bad: I have been so overwhelemd with so much going on. My month of February is so booked that it made me cringe just thinking about February 1. I have so much going on. I have made it a point to make SURE I spend time on "me" every day by exercising even if I have a million things on my list to do. I realize now that I HAVE to take care of myself before I do anything else. That has been a HUGE realization for me and I am glad that I have finally made that promise to myself.

The Ugly: STRESS!!! I try so hard to be relaxed about most things but things just keep piling and piling on my plate and I cannot seem to figure out a way to get them to stop. I hope to work towards finding a balance and try to find a few things I can let go so I can take care of myself. I will be doing a lot of soul searching in the next few months to make decisions on what I need to let go so I have more time to take care of me. This is going to be very difficult for me because I honestly love everything I do but I also have to make time for me.